I took my sweet time getting into my second class today staring at the company dancers rehearsing, until i walked past my classroom and realized they started ten minutes ago!!!!! Whoops. That’s what I get for daydreaming! Intermediate ballet has been fun, and extremely difficult. I’m keeping up better that I expected, except with all the jetes, glissades, pique, and chaines turns and combinations. AHHHHHH!!!! For the first time, I didn’t participate towards the end of class, because I was embarrassed and flustered, and I didn’t even know where to start, nor did I want to hold the entire class back. And I started doing that THING where I mentally say to myself, “What the hell am I doing here? I can’t keep up. Why am I even dancing…blahblahblah” until I realized that I was doing that, and shut it down immediately…because everyone was staring at me waiting for me to go, and my face was bright red and I just shook my head. Oof!
My core is pretty weak, but my balance is getting somewhat better??? I got split flats that FIT yesterday…but I’m pretty attached to my full sole ones now. Oh the challenges.